the place

so funny how big of a deal this used to be.....

i would just like to say stop wasting my time. i don't care about all the bull shit. i didn't ask to be in the middle of anything and i don't want to be. i have other things, much bigger things, to worry about. if you don't want to be friends with me, i don't care. don't use me as some sort of leverage against someone else. ever. if you have, i truely feel sorry for you. you are pathetic and i don't want your bad energy around me. so, no, i don't want to be your friend. and you know what? i don't care if you talk about me and i don't care if you write in your little private blogs about me because this is so fucking high school i feel like i should be writing this in a note and waiting for the bell to ring tso i can scoot off to my locker. grow up bitches.

i think tomorrow night i'm hanging out with bri-guy. haven't seen him in a while. then saturday i'm going to get my hair cut maybe. i think i might go blonde again. i liked that. and maybe i'll watch the super bowl? i'm not sure what this weekend will bring me.

pan's labyrinth. it was so visually beautiful i couldn't take my eyes off it.

i don't have any plans this weekend.

so, just a question... does anyone still read livejournal? i thought about posting some more serious stuff on here, since anyone can read your myspace. just wondering who all still held strong livejournal style...

200. My name is: Sara

199: I was born on: a monday

198. I am: 22

(wheres 197?)

196. My eye color is: green gray blue, it depends really on my mood, the time of day, you know...

195. My shoe size is: 8

194. My ring size is: unimportant because i don't wear rings

(and 193?)

192. My height is: 5'8......

191. I am allergic to: cats and horses

190. I live in: a shitty house in indianapolis (but not for long)

189. The last book I read: venus in furs

188. My bed is: my getaway car

187. One thing I know for sure about the opposite sex: Thier parts are different and less complicated

186. I am glad I'm my sex b/c: i get to go through the pains of childbirth? no that's not it.........i get cramps and bleed for five days straight without dying? no, that's not it........ i have to look like i care about myself? no that's not it either......... wait, is this a trick question???

(And 185-180?)
179. My favorite Holiday is: boxing day

178. The perfect kiss is: slow

177. The last three cd's I bought are: NOW20, weezer and dave matthews (i don't really buy CDs anymore

176. Last song that made me cry was: playing on the radio at IHOP

(And 175-173?)

172. My most treasured possession(s) is(are): my dog, my grandmoter's things, and my cork boards

(and 171?)

170. What did you do last night: worked until 1, went to kroger with jon, watched the rest of walk the line

(And 169-168?)
167. My skin's reaction to the sun is (tan/burn): tan

:::::I Do (YES)/Do Not (NO) Believe In:::::

(And 166-144?)

143. Santa?: no, tooth fairy yes

142. love at first sight?: no, lust at first sight yes

141. luck?: no, karma yes

140. Fate?: no, writen futures yes

139. God?: of course

138. Aliens?: not the movie kind, but life on other planets and in different dimensions yes

137. Heaven:? of course

136. Hell?: i used to work there, you might know it by it's other name: PETCO or sometimes refered to as OLD NAVY

135. Soulmates?: one for everyone no, but i do blieve there are many for everyone and it's up to you to decide who you want

134. Horoscopes?: only if someone reads it to you

(And 133-130?)

:::::Which is Better?:::::

129. Hugs or Kisses?: hugs because everyone can give them and everyone can get them without that weirdness

128. Drunk or High: hmmm....probably drunk because it won't show up on a drug test

127. phone or online: online

126. Red heads or Black hair?: i love the redheads...

125. Blondes or Brunettes: who cares?

(And 124-121?)

120. Night or Day: i love the night life

119. Oranges or Apples: i'm not so sure anymore, i had some apple kool-aid and it has swayed me to the orange side of life

118. Curly or Straight hair: it doesn't matter

:::::Here's What I Think About:::::

(And 117?)

116. Abortion?: i'm not going to judge you for it

115. Backstabbers?: aren't we all once in a while? come on, don't lie to yourself

114. Parents?: they're good if you get the right ones

(And 113-111?)

110. School?: i miss the life, but not the classes

:::::Last time?::::::::

(And 109-104?)
103. Kissed someone: just now when jon left

102. hugged someone: at subway when jon bought my sammich

101. Seen someone I haven't seen in a while: when krista lynn came to see me

(And 100?)

99. Grew: when i was 13? i don't know

::::MISC::::

(And 93-91?)

90. Who's the ditziest person I know: this girl i work with named brook

89. Who makes you laugh the most: i love to laugh, so i try to laugh at everyone

(And 88?)

87. One thing I'm pissed about right now is: nothing, i let things go, except maybe the apartment thing, but other than that....

(And 86-84?)

83. The last movie I saw in the theater was: full movie? fun with dick and jane

82. The thing I don't understand is: why the person that made this survey can spell everything correctly but not count, how can you spell but not count? what's with that?

(And 81?)

80. The most unsatisfactory answer I've ever received: "yo"... what if i were someone really really important calling, do you want to answer the phone with "yo"? (i think i'm answering these wrong)

79. The one thing I love about the opposite sex is: how tough they are

(And 78, 77?)

76. This summer I am: working? i don't get summer vacay anymore

75. Something I will really miss when I leave home is: i've alreay left, so i'm not sure this applies to me... but jon is what i miss when i leave home to go to work, so, jon is my answer..

74. The things that I'm looking forward to the most is: moving, the kentucky derby, getting a raise...

73. Tomorrow: work 11-630 then a movie

72. Today: drink with the stars oscar party at sam's

71. Next Summer: still work

70. Next Week: i go home, joanna's birthday, jon leaves for spring break

:::MISC:::::

(And 69, 68?)

67. People call me: on the phone? once again i'm not sure i've answered this correctly...

(And 66, 65?)

64. The person I have been good friends with the longest: brytton

(And 63?)

62. The person who knows the most about me is?: jon i guess, or my sista

61. The ppl that can read me the best are: my family

(And 60?)

59. I have gotten a speeding ticket: yes i have

58. I have the following siblings: my sista

(And 57?)

56. My zodiac sign is: taurus

(and 55, 54?)

53. The one person who can't hide things from me: jon and my sister

(And 52?)

51. Right now I am talking to: nobody
(And 50, 49?)

48. I have/will get a job : yes? is that the answer we are looking for, yes i have one?

47. I have how many pets in my house: three dogs, one of them is my lucy girl

46. I hope: for world peace, haha, not really...

45. The worst sound in the world: james blunt's voice

44. The person that makes me cry the most is: the person that had enough time to make this survey and didn't even do it right

(And 43-36?)
35. florida or hawaii: FLORIDA!!

(And 34?)

33. My favorite piece of clothing is: my jeans, if they are good ones, and a big, but not too big, hooded sweatshirt

32. My favorite sport to play: haha, sports are for watching silly...

31. Last time I cried: when jerome bettis retired

(And 30, 29?)

28. The school I go to is: the school of hard knocks

27. Last person I got pissed at: the subway lady for yelling at me because she got my order wrong, bitch

26. My worst drinking experience was: goldschlager night because i really can't remember it and that's sad because from what i hear i was having the best time ever...

(And 25-23?)

22. The all-time best movies are: never picked for academy awards

21. The all-time best thing in the world is: sleeping to good dreams under a warm heating blanket and knowing the rest of the world outside is cold but you are warm in a place nobody can reach you...

20. So, about them Canadians eh?: it's not "eh" its "ay" dumbass

19. The most annoying thing ever is: if you know me at all you know if find many things annoying and to pick just one is annoying in itself

(and 18?)

17. I lose all respect for people who: chew tobacco and listen to singers that complain for a living to piano music

(And 16-12?)

11. The worst pain I was ever in was: when i had to have an upper GI and when i smashe my thumb in the door by a couch

10. My favorite phrase: would you pass the jam please?

9. My room is: small, the best one in the house, messy, mine...

8. My favorite celebrity is: Joaquin Phoenix

(Ang 7, 6?)

5. My weakness is: charm

(And 4?)

3. Who broke your heart?: gavin rossdale when he broke away from bush to form his own band

2. I filled out 200 questions because: i'm bored and i feel compelled to fill my time with this rubbish nobody will read...

1. What do you regret most: having regrets at all

(In case u didnt figure it out, u forgot a few questions.)

well one of two things eventually happens in life. you either one: lose all your friends, or two: get busy. i think i'm the lader of the two but to be sure, i'll catch everyone up on what's going on with me.
jan 13: i graduate from bartending school and work a private party at indiana downs.
jan 20: i pass my final for bartending school and it was the hardest thing i ever had to do, but i got a 90%
jan 31: i get a new job at cinemark movies 8 as the asst. manager and i'm told by the GM she is leaving in a year and need someone (me) to take over
feb 1: i quit petco. the single most beautiful thing i have ever done
feb 3: jon and i find the most perfect apt.
feb 3: i am called by midwest bartenders school and invited to work the VIP room at the kentucky derby.
feb 5: i visit the hanna house, which is something i have wanted to do for a lifetime and it was amazing (thank you nikki)
feb 5: THE STEELERS WIN THE SUPERBOWL. the bus retires.

so, i'm not sure what to think of everything that's happened, it's all happened so fast. no matter what life throws at you, there is always something to counter it. that's science right? for every action there is a greater or equal reaction? so, there is in fact something hanging over my head preventing me from enjoying everything too much, but nothing to get too excited about just yet. so, there you have it. kick back and enjoy life.

i've been so sad lately. i think it's because all my friends are gone and i miss them. and i miss jon so much. i've realized a lot since he's been gone and i think i'm much stronger because of it. luckily, he hates being around his family most of the time, so he's coming home soon. whew...
anyway, i'm excited because i'm going home tomorrow until monday night. how nice to be around old faces i've missed so much.
so, what's new with me....
-supposed to go out with dustin tonight, but i have to get up and work early tomorrow, so, next week buddy, next week
-still hate my job
-everything is going to change in the new year and not because it's a new year and i think it's going to be a fresh change or some bull shit, it's just going to change, trust me
-god is good to me
-i had a dream the other night i went to a hair metal concert with joanna and we were suduced by tommy lee and he wanted us to live with him. (we said yes)
-i bought amazing christmas gifts for my family and i have no ideas for jon, so if you think of any, let me know

that's all i suppose for now, have a great one and a very merry christmas.

so sick of hearing it all....so sick of it....

TRAVIS HAS THE CUTEST GIRLFRIEND I HAVE EVER SEEN IN MY LIFE!

hey, there's a new pizza place by target and the dollar tree down the road called CiCi's pizza. it's all you can eat pizza buffet for $5.70. go there, it's about 15 different kinds of pizza and that price includes soda! it's amaizing!

ATTENTION! this is very important! this year i am getting everyone a Christmas gift that wants one. it will be special, something you will love, and something from the heart. i am buying everyone something special from the dollar tree this year. it is somthing i have been thinking hard about and i want everyone to reply to this with thier name if you want a gift from me for Christmas. So, once again i will say, if you want a gift, reply to this post. thank you and Merry Christmas.

one of the most amazing things i've seen in a while...

http://sportsillustrated.cnn.com/2005/football/nfl/11/28/bc.fbn.eagles.ashesarre.ap/index.html

you should have seen the footage, it was so amazing...can you imagine where you would want your ashes scattered??

I never just update anymore. It's always something this or something that. I remember the days when livejournal was the bee's knees and everyone did it every day and it was the most fantastic thing in the world. Everyone also did facebook and aim all the time. That used to be my only form of communication. Well, I've decided to just update. The odds of anyone reading it are slim, but I don't care I'm sure.
Last night jon and I had our own Thanksgiving dinner together. It was very nice. We had corn bread, prime rib roast, salad, stuffing, pumpkin pie, and cola. It was fun and nice to have some time together without everyone around.
Speaking of which, how do you tell a roommate that is actively searching for a new place for you guys that you don't want to live with him? yikes.... I'm not sure what to do with that, so if anyone has any ideas, please let me know.
I'm leaving tomorrow night for Detroit. I have to work close and then we are making that glorious five and a half hour drive up there. woo. We are going to a redwings game wednesday and then thanksgiving with jon's family on thursday. I think we are going to peru on Saturday and then back down to hell sunday night. I don't want to talk about coming back yet. That will be hard enough to do when the time comes. I hate my job. And with good reason. Trust me.
So, I think that's all. I'm going to go eat some leftovers and then head on to work. Come visit me? No? I understand. PEACE!

dee..sorry i didn't come to your party! i had to close that night and go back in early the next day! i hope you had fun! happy birthday!

laguna beach will be NOTHING without kristin!! it will FAIL without hilary duff's theme song!






don't get me wrong, i'll watch the new ones anyway, but still, lol...

so i was just on facebook (FACE!) and found out there are about a million pictures of me (5) on my profile. how did they get there? i don't know what's going on, someone please fill me in. this is the funniest thing i've ever seen because there is a killer one of evan and i was like, "that's not me" but if you look in the back i'm making a retarded face and someone thought it would be funny if i put it there. thanks. lol....

i don't actually write in here unless i need to get something off my mind or make some sort of announcement. everyone else writes their feelings or vents or what they did today, well, here's how i'm feeling today:
everything is spinning out of control around me, everyone and everything i know, and i feel, for the first time in my life, i can't do this. i can't do anything to help. i feel this way a lot now. there's so many things i would like to say to people. i just fail when it comes to words. the only words that come to mind are bad ones. the only words that come to mind are the ones that will shake things up and make a huge dent in the way you look at me. i used to be that person. the blunt ass that didn't care. but it's more like i'm looking from the outside and i only know in my mind i should care. i'm just not feeling it. i've become too used to the fact that people come and go. that's a scary thing. especially when you think they will go for good. then there's the people i know are bad for me that i can't get away from. the people that don't care about me, no matter their words, i can tell by thier actions they only care about themselves. well, here's an eye opener, you aren't the only one with problems. yeah, go figure, i have problems too. but you wouldn't know. that's fine. i don't expect you to ask me how my day was, just don't assume you are the only one that had a bad one.

what sucks the most about posting stuff like this is that three things will happen:
1. you won't know i'm talking about you
2. you will think i'm talking about you when i'm not
3. you won't even read this and if you do, you'll judge me and say bad things.
i'm ok with all of those, i just want to say it and know it's there and trust it will be delivered. i should say so much more. this turned into a personal letter rather than a sharing of feelings.

tomas: sorry i had to leave last night, i had fun with you and i want to see you again soon. i miss you.

new news:
jon told me tonight that the guy that came into our house and assulted him was transfered to one of his classes. and he says to me this, "his name isn't rob, it's lee"

IT'S FUCKING LEE MISHER! HE BROKE INTO OUR HOUSE AND TRIED TO BEAT UP JON AND ASSULTED HIM.

just thought you guys would like to know that.

Joan Crawford You scored 50% grit, 23% wit, 23% flair, and 28% class!

You are one tough dame, as tough as they come. You've had to fight long and hard to get where you are, but you always knew you'd do whatever you had to do to get ahead. You aren't above committing crimes (or seducing others to do them for you) to get what you want. You want to be happy and comfortable, but you usually always manage to get the fuzzy end of the lollipop. Even your kids are usually against you. Your leading men include anyone you set your sights on, even married guys that are never seen on-screen. Watch your back. Find out what kind of classic leading man you'd make by taking the Classic Leading Man Test.

My test tracked 4 variables How you compared to other people your age and gender: You scored higher than 98% on grit You scored higher than 36% on wit You scored higher than 10% on flair You scored higher than 53% on class

Link: The Classic Dames Test written by gidgetgoes on OkCupid Free Online Dating, home of the 32-Type Dating Test